This month is going to FLY by because we are so, so busy. It started last weekend with a camping trip for the long weekend, this weekend we are going on our last trip of the year then the following weekend is Oliver’s first soccer game and the boys joint birthday party, then Oliver has his first days at preschool, the following weekend is Kyan’s first birthday and I have shopping plans with a girlfriend and then the last weekend we head to Banff, Alberta for a friends wedding and our anniversary and then when we get back I have a day at home and then right back into full time work!
I hate having all of my weekends planned, I just feel like I have SO much to do and not enough time to do it and I get stressed out. Like worrying over little things like when am I going to find time to buy hot dogs and plates and stuff for the birthday party!?! And I wanted to be much smaller in size by this month because I want to get a nice new dress for the wedding, but I wanted one that I could use again for Christmas parties (I don’t wear dresses often, so I don’t want to buy more than one that will just sit in my closet) but I slacked a bit too much and won’t be where I wanted by the end of this month. I’m much better than where I was, but need to keep pushing myself and not slack off so I actually get there by the end of this year. I’d like to start the new year at a size I’m comfortable with, rather than carrying around the extra weight I’ve had for the last 4 years.
I think I’m also stressed about going back to work. Its hard to be home for a year, getting to know so much more of Oliver’s personality and see Kyan grow and change and then have to be gone from them. I do love my job, and the office I work at but wish I wasn’t going back. I felt the exact same way after Oliver, but when I went back at that time I knew we were eventually going to have another baby, so there would be an end in sight. Right now we aren’t sure where things stand on that subject, so I need to go into it thinking I’ll be there for the long haul. I know this job may not be forever, but right now it feels that way. And as much as I don’t want to go back, a small part of me isn’t ready to give it up just yet.
I feel like I have been completely out of the blogging loop the last few weeks. I haven’t been reading too many posts, commenting all that often and haven’t posted at all!! I find that when we have a free weekend it gives me time to catch up on things, but when we are out camping we usually head in to the States. As soon as we cross the border I have no data on my phone, which means I have no email or internet. There is a clubhouse I can walk up and use wifi in, but Jason said its terribly slow and do I want to sit there just to read some blogs? Not really! Sorry if that offends anyone, but I do have my regular reads that I will always go back and catch up on!! It was nice coming home this weekend with some ladies asking where I have been and that they missed me! So crazy what this little blogging community can do, I have met so many wonderful “friends” that I feel so close to even though we have never met!!
Wow, that was quite the random post, maybe I should have been posting more so random crap just doesn’t spew out of my mouth!! And sorry for the lack of photos, I haven’t even been using my camera!!